Penghibur yg Tiada Ganti

Al-Fatihah Sudirman Hj. Arshad (25 Mei 1954-22 Februari 1992)

Assalamualaikum....

This morning watching MHI, they did this special slot honouring the memory of Sudirman who left us 20 years now. And yes i have to admit, he was a great entertainer yg hingga ke saat ini, belum ada yg boleyh menggantikan beliau. Kalau diperhatikan kesemua lagu beliau, semua berunsurkan patriotisma, kenegaraan, perkauman dan sgt berlainan genre setiap lagunya. Artis2 skarang ni ade ke cm tu? Ade ke nk buat lagu berunsurkan patriotik, kenegaraan, melambangkan negara Malaysia zmn skang nih?

Lagu yang ada skang ni pun bnyk berunsurkan percintaan terhadap kekasih, pendek kata...cinta cinta cinta
Overall, Sudirman Hj Arshad adalah penghibur yg tiada galang gantinya, yg pada hayat beliau sentiase berusaha utk memajukan negara dlm bdng hiburan...Semoga Allah mencucurkan rahmat ke atas rohnya...~ameen~

Ahlan Wasahlan... n_n

Salam sejahtera semua diucapkan. Terasa sudah lame x mengupdate blog nih. Makin lame makin xde idea nk mengarang sebuah cerita ataupun bingkisan atau ape2 saje lah. Hmmm...tidak mengapelah, sy akan cuba siket2 utk mencari idea yg dh lame menghilang..so we will begin with . . . . jeng3

‎:: Sayang SAHABAT sanggup terluka ::

Salam ukhwah buat sahabat handai yg dekat mahupun yg jauh...

Hmmm. Maaf kan saya kerana enrty kali ini terlalu pilu utk sy ungkapkan. But sy rase sy harus luahkan. Before that, salam tahun baru...walaupun last entry pada tahun lepas, dan sekarang nih kita sudah mula melangkah ke bulan Februari. Ape yg sy nk ungkapkan utk enrty kali ni, adalah luahan dari hati yg sgt sunyi. I know this sounds crazy to some of you and you might think this is no big deal, but it is to me. Friends are so much important to me. As to some of you know, bahawa sy adalah anak tunggal. So i probably anggap semua sahabat adalah sebahagian dr keluarga sy. And yes..I do. Tiap kali sy menjalinkan persahabatan, memang x pernah berubah bahawa di setiap jalinan ini, sy akan menjalinkan hubungan persahabatan yg sgt rapat n so close to only one person out of our big group of friends. Up until now, I still do. But there's this one friend that  felt so much different than the rest, and the rest of the years that Ive been making friends. She's different. Dan sy percaya pd takdir dan ketentuan bahawa di setiap jalinan yg Allah jalinkan, ade hikmah dan sebab. And probably this is it. Ever since Ive met her, I felt drawn close to her. And we've had the most memorable moments together, and with the rest of our friends. Knowing her, teaches me kasih-sayang cz dia adalah seorng yg terlalu menyayangi org2 di sekeliling die, especially org2 yg die syg. The way she showed how she cares n concerns for others, made me realized how strong this thing called love. Mengenali dia membuatkan sy mahukan a sister(she's younger than I am), mengajar sy erti kasih sayg yg sebenar. Made me wanna cheer her up, made me wanna do anything for her so that she could be happy. And nothing more important to me than seeing her happy. Because Ill be happy. But some things turn out differently when something else turned up. And it caused her heart tremendously. I felt the change and i cant help but to notice. I tried to offer help, but she wouldnt accept any. Right now I always felt the somberly atmosphere. We weren't like we used. We used to chat, shared everything, joked around and have some laughs n shared some tears together. But now on circumstances, things changed. And I miss it tremendously. My heart felt empty, lonely knowing that I cant do anything for her, to cheer her up. Nothing. Right now, Im bearing all my intentions to ask her, to have a conversations with her fearing that I would ask her so many questions that would hurt her feelings. (A long time ago I used to asked her questions cz she always had something that bothers her mind n heart, but now I cant....). I may not know how to make her laugh, or forget her pain for a while...all I can do is to ask her if she's ok. That's all I know. My prayers are non-stop hoping that she would be okay, and hoping that one day that she would open up her heart and let every thing that hurts out. I dun want her to keep everything inside. Tears are flowing non-stop ever since. And I dun know why....my heart felt empty, so empty. Sy terlalu menyayangi die sbg seorg sahabat...and probably seorng adik(yg sy x pernah ade). Kemungkinan semua ni is no big deal to some..but somehow it is a BIG deal for me. Friendship IS and ALWAYS a big deal for me. 

Sayang SAHABAT sanggup terluka. Demi keredhaanNYA, aku mohon dikuatkan ikatan ini hingga ke akhir hayat. I cant promise Ill be the best, but Ill try with all my heart that Ill be the friend that you'll never had.

A Recap of the Last Few Weeks

Assalamualaikum...

Fuhh...its been way, way a long time since I last wrote an entry here. (Sempat lg mengarang nih..padahal esok nk quiz..haishhh). Anyway a quick recap of what happened for the last few weeks. Hmmm nothing much really. School holidays had already started. Well the holiday is about to end in a few weeks. But truthfully, I've never felt the holiday. Every now and then, I had to attend school to managed the BUKU PENGURUSAN. (How awful..).

Not to mention my assignments to be handed in now that we have reached our final of second semester. Never felt busy in my entire life. But whether I liked it or not, life has to move on. Right? Either you move on, or might as well you flunked!....heh hopefully not.  It's really stressful attending the buku pengurusan. There are only two typist; myself and the other GSTT. Just us both jd assistants to our P.Kanan. I thought doing what we did last year, was hard enough. Only Allah knows how hard it is for this year, that we had to do every single thing from scratch. Subhanallah...

Up until now, it is still far from done. Sangat la stress when thinking about it. Not to mention this week I'll be having 2 major and important test and quiz. Lots of notes to read, goodness knows what will the questions be. Though the handling of buku pengurusan I have to leave everything to my colleague. Pity him...so sorry...mohon ampun. But I really have to focus on my quiz & test. Like it or not have to choose either both.

Whats with me, myself developed fever a few days. My body suddenly felt so hot. It was burning inside that I can't sit still. My head felt heavy. Automatically my spirit went down. I had to force myself to boost up my own energy to do some revisions. Otherwise, I couldn't care less!

So probably I had to stop myself from pouring more and more of what I had in mind right now. Had to look back through my thick notes. All about theories. Yech...(I hate theories.....I just hate them[theory, fact]...because you had to really memorised all the terms..and bla bla bla bla100x..)

So take care guys. May Allah bless you all. Until we meet again before we enter to a brand new year. n_n

Bertugas Bermlm

Jumaat semlm, aku kene bertugas bermlm di sekolah. Fenomena yg menjd kebiasaan apabila cikgu2 yg mude2 and still x mempunyai ape2 tanggungjwb diberi tugas utk bermlm di sekolah. So last night, dlm kul 10 aku bertolak dr umah dan arrived at school around 1030. Sampai2 aku x tau mane x dituju. Maklum laa still new around here. So i went to find the teachers yg bertugas same2 bermlm. We found each other, and sat at what looks like an open hall near the staff room. We waited until the students finished their slot. Nearly 11 we went straight to the MPV bengkel all the way back. (quite isolated for the girls to be slept in). We went to 'bed' after making sure the girls are alright. I slept in the middle with them on each of my side. With the kipas directly above me...reminds me of last year where my colleagues n myself had to berjage mlm di camp kt Lasah. Same situation where they are three of us. I slept in the middle and also with my colleagues on each side and of course the kipas directly pointed straight at me. Sejuk bkn main tp mmg nyaman. Tp this time we slept beralas kan tikar jek...but what the hey, aslkan leyh tdo sudaaa...Luckily we dont have to wake the girls up for their Qiamullail which we didnt join in. We just slept until we woke up at 630. Ahhh...good thing its over..maybe dlm bln 9 nnt kowt kene lg who knows kan. 

Support from others

Start esok aku dpt focus towards perkara lain. Alhamdulillah...ade gak koje yg aku leyh buat drp duk umah melayan perasaan mcm org x betui dh. Tetapi aku heran kali ni aku terase lain sgt2. Compare dgn 2 tahun yg sebelumnyer, aku ok..elok jek. tibe yg kali ini, i just don't know why. Feel scared, nervous reck...td dh berjurai ayo mate turun bagai kan air terjun. Di saat inilah, aku perlukan sahabat2 utk bg aku sokongan(selain dr parents), semangat utk aku teruskan perjuangan...but i'm still waiting from this one sahabat to comfort me, to give me courage n all. But x tau ah kalo die bace status aku di muke buku tu ke x. I appreciate sgt2 sokongan yg diberikn dr sahabat2 yg lain(thnx guys)...tp still I needed this person's. Ever since die pergi jauh berjuang mnjd pendidik, aku seolah2 hilang tempat utk mengadu, berbicara, berlawak jenaka, berkongsi masalah serta rahsia yg kami berdue je tahu. X tau why aku terase down sgt2 kali ni..happy of course cz ade bende lain nk buat...tp nk menghadapi nyer for the first time in this new place n environment, i do need some encouragement especially from the ones that i totally rapat n cared. Owh well, maybe die bz ngan practicum die...aku x pakse, cume x penah berenti berhrap hearing news dari die, tegoran dr die, pertanyaan khabo dr die n all....hmmmmm

Ntah ...tak tahu

This morning, g bwk mak n opah g kedai letrik. Opah nk beli dapur gas( nk gantikan dgn yg baru). Kebetulan ade sorg ibu ngan anak kecil die, a boy of 2 or 3 yrs of age. Anak die tanye mcm2 kt ibu die sambil tunjuk kpd mcm2 barngan letrik yg ade didlm kedi tersebut. Tp yg aku parhati, ibu die jwb sumeyer, 'Ntah...' ...'ntahle ibu x taulaa'..How's that?? Aku perati anak die tunjuk kan kt periuk nasi yg beso tu pun ibu die jwb ntah. Mcmane anak nk develop knowledge kalo segale jwpnnyer ntah belake. Haishhh....